Can I just say....I am struggling.
The why is surrounding me lately.
Laughing at me...
Reminding me I am not good enough.
When I start to play the "why me " game I can spend hours ... Days telling myself all the reasons why I believe.
Sometimes I feel like I am being punished because I am not good enough, sometimes I decide it is because I am overweight (so often my weight has been blamed for my problems by others), sometimes it is because I didn't fight hard enough.
This list could go on and on...some of my " why's" are too hard, too awful, too personal to write...
When does it make sense?
When does it end?
Why two failed pregnancies since him?