What if Ian doesn't make it?
What if history repeats itself?
What something different goes wrong this time?
I played this game for months after Trent died and lately I can't seem to get it out of my head for Ian.
I am just shy of 19 weeks pregnant. I was admitted to the hospital with Trent at 21 weeks 4 days. I am so scared of approaching that same mile stone with this pregnancy. I feel like it is the week of doom. I had an OB appt today and everything looked great. I am dehydrated but other than that everything is good. But, when I was 19 weeks with Trent everything was good. I left with and appt for 4 weeks later and the next time I saw my OB I had meet and said good bye to my son. I cried the whole appt today. I asked about all the scenarios that could go wrong. I have to stop worrying so much. I just don't know how.
I would rather be having these thoughts...and maybe I will FORCE myself to have them...
What if Ian is born full term, perfectly healthy?
What if he comes home from the hosptial?
What if the cerclage holds?